Day 1: A Street


A Not-So-Thrilling “First”

Ariel experienced another childhood “first” today: her first encounter with a schoolbus bully.

Apparently, a girl behind her unzipped Ariel’s backpack and pulled out the tag that lists Ariel’s personal information. Ariel took it back and told her, “it’s not your business,” to which the bully responded by spitting in Ariel’s eye. She seemed unhappy and a little bewildered as she got off the bus and related the story, but not too terribly shaken up or frightened. And yes, she told the bus driver, who commanded them both to face forward and leave each other alone. Hopefully this incident won’t repeat itself…

Big jump down!

During the semester that I spent at that same elementary school, I was teased incessantly, and bus rides in particular were horrible. Putting Ariel in this school has been a strange experience, with certain emotions washing over me as I walk down the halls, emotions that I have to push out of my mind and remind myself that Ariel is a completely different person than I was, with much better social skills, self-esteem, and fortitude. I was a sixth-grader who had never been in a public school before, and she is a kindergartener who just finished an excellent year at her state-run preschool. But this incident is bringing some of those feelings of anxiety back to the surface for me, feelings that I am trying not to show to my daughter.

I keep telling myself that I need to blog again

It’s been a LONG time. And the Happy Place blog I made always felt contrived, so I gave it up very quickly. But I think I would like to come back here and pick up where I left off. So much as changed, but I think that I’ve done enough healing that the new me can come here and hang out next to the old me without an emotional break-down (at least, I hope!).

Anyway, I found this on Pinterest yesterday and it piqued my interest. It made me want to go out on a limb and actually DO it. Shocking, but true. So I think I’m gonna! Back soon!


So much has happened since my last post.

There are things that you talk about on a blog, and things that you don’t. There are things that I will be able to share publicly one day, but for now, the details will have to remain unknown. This July, I made the very difficult decision to remove myself and my daughters from an abusive situation. The last few months have been a challenge, a roller coaster. They have been some of the happiest and most stressful and most angry times of my life. I have never felt more free, more capable, more determined, or more overwhelmed. I have never had more hope for the future.

With a new life comes a new blog! It feels weird to continue tacking posts of my new life onto a blog from a past that seems so far away emotionally. So come on over to Happy Place and check out our new life! It’s deliciously pink…

I’m not really acing this NaBloPoMo thing this year…

Great Post

So I have this really great post planned.  Actually, it’s a series.  I was thinking it through and gathering some data for it yesterday.  Pretty excited.

Then I threw up this morning, at about 5:45am.  And the rest of the day has gone accordingly.

Dan was kind enough to take a day off work to care for the girls, which I am so very, very grateful for.  And so I spent most of the day in bed, or occasionally shuffling around the house, always armed with a large bowl and wrapped in a blanket.

It’s so cute when a two-year-old watches you puke.  “Oh!  You’re frowing up, mommy?  You’re really really sick?  I’m sowwy!  I frowed up yesterday in mommy and daddy’s potty.  I did.  You’re frowing up in the purple bowl, mommy?  The purple one, and not the blue one?  Oh!  I’m sowwy…”

Gross, but cute.  And the moral of the story is, of course, that my fabulous post will have to wait.  So will my Oregon Health Plan application, which was supposed to be RECEIVED by DHS today.  I sure am glad that they’re lenient…

It’s over there!

My post for today is right here.